The Grand Old concept of Manifestation! But wait, how do you manifest again?
We have all heard about it, we have all read the words ‘manifest your true purpose in life’ and have listened to podcasts that tell us ‘you are what you attract’, but no one really tells you HOW to manifest. It’s kind of like starting to meditate, there really isn’t a handbook that tells you exactly how to do it, it’s more of a feeling that you have to learn. A feeling of surrendering to what is, a feeling of melting into the idea that there is a much bigger force at play in our lives and it is here to help guide and watch over us and deliver people, circumstances and opportunities that will best serve our highest good… that force is the all too beautiful Divine, or aka The Universe.
Let’s rewind to circa February 2019 when a girlfriend and I just started to really get into yoga together. And through my videography career within a high profile wellness company, we have yoga memberships and within this yoga studio, a Bali retreat was being held later that year (synchronicity much?!) Me being me, I, of course, convinced my anxious flying friend that we need to book our tickets to Bali now and just do it! So we did. Now let’s move forward to October 2019 when life had continued to progress as it does, it was smooth sailing, work was good, life was ‘good’, but yet I still felt like something was missing. Don’t get me wrong, I love my career, my family, friends and life as it was, but I always knew I had more inside of me, more to give, be, do, and show up in this world for. I just didn’t know how to get from one side to the other without letting fear stop me hard in my tracks.
So October has rolled around and here we are, in Ubud doing yoga twice a day, journaling, breathing, grounding, and completely surrendering to the practice of yoga and meditation. The deeper I got, the more I downloaded into my journal and the more it became clear to me that my purpose in this life is to be of greater service. That is where my passion lies. To not only help others but to create meaningful work in this world that has a greater impact outside of just you and I. To love. To give and receive and to BE love. Oh gosh, that love word had me shivering in my skin back then. The thing about love is that when I love, lord knows I give it my all, and it took 10 years of suppressed heartache and one shitty ex-boyfriend to completely break me open - the biggest blessing in disguise as I got to rebuild myself into the woman I am today, but it did make me scared to let love in again. So I would write all of this down. I would surrender to tears falling on the pages, words vomiting out of my mouth uncontrollably and nonsensically until I had nothing else to release. Then I would do it all over again whenever I needed to.
That was step 1 in what I call manifestation. The period where you get clear on who you are, what you want and where you want to go in this life.
Step 2 was a whole other experience…
So picture a mass gathering of people from all over the world sitting in a circle, within a temple, chanting, crying, dancing and bowing at each other’s existence. Showing up for a complete stranger and being their support, their sister or brother, their soul mate just for that moment. Then insert the cacao ceremony- THE CACAO CEREMONY!! This is where I truly believe my manifestation was sent out into the universe with such force and power that there was NO WAY it could not be received and delivered back to me. This is where all that I knew I wanted to attract for my highest purpose came out in complete authenticity and humbleness. I shed a few tears, I saw visions, I clearly stated exactly what it was that I desired, and I felt the feeling that would come from having those things/people/opportunities in my life, and without too much private detail, I literally carved out my future self and future life in my visualisations and then drank my cacao before we rested with an hour of sound healing.
If this all sounds woo woo and “yeah great but what the heck is manifestation and how do you do it” kind of thing for you, then all I can truly say is this: manifestation isn’t just about saying “Hey Universe I’d really love to be out of debt and buy that car I’ve always wanted and get that relationship that will finally make me happy”. No. It’s a process of self-healing, self-discovery and self-love first and foremost, because without actually sitting with yourself and doing the inner work to really get your core needs and desires to the surface, then the Universe can’t work with you because you are in your ego. It has to be real- as confronting, vulnerable and raw as it may be, it has to be heart centred. THEN, it is feeling the feeling that you would have if you had the thing that you desire. For example, I focused on the feeling I would have if my future partner came into my life. I would feel safe (because he is consistent in his actions), I would laugh all the time (because he is funny), I would feel trusted (because he is trustworthy himself), I would be able to shine my true light (because he too was driven and ambitious in life) etc. The same with my career- I would feel content (because I was fulfilled in helping others), I would feel driven (because I had passion, fire and love for what I do), I would feel free (because I was financially supported in an abundance of work that would always come to me).
Here’s the juicy part; I came back from Bali in October and met my current partner one week later who is everything I had envisioned and then some. I had three emails within a week that opened up more career and creative opportunities for my business to which I said “yes and…” to almost everything, and I continue to show up and be of service whilst allowing myself to receive abundance in all aspects of my life. I don’t believe it was a coincidence, nor do I believe that these things fell from the sky and fell into my lap. However, what I do believe is that I did the necessary inner work, I lifted my vibrational frequency and I attracted the things I had been manifesting, focusing and visualising on. I essentially elevated my consciousness into a new realm of thinking, being and feeling and this is what I believe led me to say yes to receiving all that was and is meant for me. Sometimes when you give so much, receiving is something you have to learn, and manifesting has definitely allowed me to do that more freely. I had to learn to surrender control in Bali and let what will be, be. Now, whenever I find myself trying to control a situation or an outcome, I know that’s just fear creeping in and my role to play here is to simply just get out of the way! (Gabby Bernstein is a goddess on manifesting and I recommend her books to everyone, you can check her out here https://gabbybernstein.com/). Gabby also talks a lot about asking the Universe for a sign in those moments you start to feel doubt creep in (let’s be real, just because you are manifesting, doesn’t mean you won’t feel scared, vulnerable or fearful). I adopted this method and I would often (and still do) ask the following; “Dear Universe, if (insert your manifestation here) is for my highest good and purpose in this life, then please be clear and precise in showing me a (insert your sign)”. My sign is a ladybug, your sign can be something specific to you- but be sure to choose something you don’t see every day, something that would definitely be a CLEAR communication from the Universe to you.
In short, feeling the feeling and channelling THAT feeling out into the universe on a high vibrational frequency to me, IS manifesting. It’s not just a vision board of pretty places on your bucket list, it’s not just positive affirmations or meditating religiously (although meditation is excellent in healing and many other things). It is work. And specifically, inner work that only you can do and then learning to TRUST that your manifestation is the abundance you DESERVE because YOU DO deserve to have abundance in all areas of your life! And always come back to that feeling of what life would feel like with all that you desire in abundance!
Happy manifesting!
xx
P.s. This is what works for me, and I can only go by my own personal experiences when writing this as to what and how I manifest and how that shows up for me in my life. How you choose to manifest or how your next-door neighbour or the lady at your local coffee shop shows up to manifest is what makes us all unique and powerfully beautiful in our own ways.